its not worth it.

okay so today, woah what a dayy. well i have finally come to realize that no matter WHAT YOU DO people will hate, and continueee TO HATE. heres the story:

i was walking to my first period class, when i feel something touch my hair...so i just you know brush it off, thinking nothing of it. and soo i just kinda straighten my hair out and i hear snickers behind me. i turn around and its like these two girls talking about me. sooo yeah i just look at them, and of course i feel embarrased...and you know i get madddd, sooo yeah i call them a couple of words. blah blah. and it was over with, then i went to go get my textbooks and i see one of the girls standing on the wall, and i just stare at her. LIKE LITERALLY STARE AT HER. anddd she couldnt even look at me, i was like HA!...talking all that stuff but dont do nothinggg about it, cant even look me in the eyeee. so yeah. but heres what im trying to say....


i have TRIED to become cool, or change my clothes, or wear my hair, orrr anything and it honestly ISNT WORKING. i just feel that if someone is going to be ignorant, regardless of what you look like, what you have on...THAT PERSON IS STILL GOING TO SAY SOMETHING. i didnt do anything to persuade these girls to pick on me, itsss just in their nature, and honestly its kinda sad. because those are the people that will never get anywhere because they are too concerned with everything but themselves. sooo yess im proud of who i am. and yess sometimes i wanna be different or look different. buttt somethings just cant be changed, (well permanetelyyy...unless you get plastic surgery lmbo) anddd im going to accept that.


so now that girl must live down that. because now she knows that she talks about me and now all that does to her is be ashamed, she cant even look at me. anddd now for the rest of the year...i will be staring at her;) and i wanna see for once if she would actually loook at me lol. smh

callll backkk(:

okay heresss an update, i got the call backk FINALLY(: anddd im excited, so i have to ride to austin tomorrow (geez la weez), to makee this first cast meeting!...it should be FUNNN hopefully heehee. anyway im so pumped and readyyy to go!..im just getting started...imma be auditioning forrr PLENTY MORE