its not worth it.

okay so today, woah what a dayy. well i have finally come to realize that no matter WHAT YOU DO people will hate, and continueee TO HATE. heres the story:

i was walking to my first period class, when i feel something touch my hair...so i just you know brush it off, thinking nothing of it. and soo i just kinda straighten my hair out and i hear snickers behind me. i turn around and its like these two girls talking about me. sooo yeah i just look at them, and of course i feel embarrased...and you know i get madddd, sooo yeah i call them a couple of words. blah blah. and it was over with, then i went to go get my textbooks and i see one of the girls standing on the wall, and i just stare at her. LIKE LITERALLY STARE AT HER. anddd she couldnt even look at me, i was like HA!...talking all that stuff but dont do nothinggg about it, cant even look me in the eyeee. so yeah. but heres what im trying to say....


i have TRIED to become cool, or change my clothes, or wear my hair, orrr anything and it honestly ISNT WORKING. i just feel that if someone is going to be ignorant, regardless of what you look like, what you have on...THAT PERSON IS STILL GOING TO SAY SOMETHING. i didnt do anything to persuade these girls to pick on me, itsss just in their nature, and honestly its kinda sad. because those are the people that will never get anywhere because they are too concerned with everything but themselves. sooo yess im proud of who i am. and yess sometimes i wanna be different or look different. buttt somethings just cant be changed, (well permanetelyyy...unless you get plastic surgery lmbo) anddd im going to accept that.


so now that girl must live down that. because now she knows that she talks about me and now all that does to her is be ashamed, she cant even look at me. anddd now for the rest of the year...i will be staring at her;) and i wanna see for once if she would actually loook at me lol. smh

callll backkk(:

okay heresss an update, i got the call backk FINALLY(: anddd im excited, so i have to ride to austin tomorrow (geez la weez), to makee this first cast meeting!...it should be FUNNN hopefully heehee. anyway im so pumped and readyyy to go!..im just getting started...imma be auditioning forrr PLENTY MORE

keep it treal(:

alrighttt here's theee freaking deal!...my dreammm, onee and onlyy passion is MUSIC(: i lovee lovee lovee it. anddd sadly alot of my closest friends doubt me:/ i have big dreamsss, and i dont wanna be an "ordinary girl" with and "ordinary job"..i wanna be somebody. not just another in the crowd. so yeah. i songwrite. thats a fact i love it, and i will CONTINUE to do it. nooo MATTER WHAT(: i just want others to support my dreams.

audition update!

...okayyy my audition in austin wenttt great(: i loveee loveee loveee the people!. they are really nice, uhmmm idkkk if i made the callback, but it was reallyyy FUN(: austin is a pretty city too. shockingly, its my FIRST time ever going there lol...and i lived in houston for like 11 years now. geezzz la weezzz. buttt yeah i did my role really well i think, i just HOPE they feel the same(: weishhh me LUCKKKK. ugh. itsss so nerve wrecking, having to wait like this and all

another audition(:

okayyy so im on audition number 2, welllll its for an independent film, uhhh my brother got a call back on the disney audition(: amazingggg boy right there(: im a veryyy proud sister. anywaysss i praying to get this call backkkk. i mean if i dont, it is what it is, ill justtt be on my way to the next one. toodlesss for now. scootaaaa is signing outtt(:

plus-size girlsss, and the industry(:

okayyy so you here ALLLL the time about women/ girls getting surgery to enhance some part or form of their body...ha...wellllll honestly EVERY one hasss flaws, but you can tell someone how pretty they are and unless they are happy with themselves, they will always picture themselves as ugly. i personally have ran into numerous incidence where i just wanted to be skinnyyy i mean who doesnt. when you see all these pretty girls in magazines...and things of this nature, it makes you want to be like them..with the perfect figures and hair and faceee. all that comes into play in a girls life. i want to lose weight more for health issues not looks. although trimming down will change my features, that to me is just a bonussss(: buttt for alll the young ladies who are scared, if you have a talent you have the RIGHT to show it now matter how big or small you are. you changing your body is onnnn YOU(:

love yourself ladies(:

disneyyy channel audition(:

okayyy guys, theres a disney audition lol..anddd im aditioning, PRAY FOR ME(: lol...butttt anyway, i heard about it on 95.7 and decided to callll in, (: sooo yeah they signed me up and everything, im soooo excited, my boyfriend is auditioning too(: lol...

if you have ever audition before i would like adviceee(:

wish me luckkkk

meetinggg number 2(:

this is a really short post,...buttt yeah another meeting with the producer(: i hope it goessss good!...im pretty much cant sleep sooo im up to writing this blog lol..wish me luck(:

the meeting, that started it all.

wowww, so the other day i met with this producer(: heee is awesome!..haha i was so nervous, but i played it off like i was cool(: even though i was like shaking in my sweatpants haha...soooo basically he listened to my friend shelby, and loveddd her voice, as for me and my lyrics, he thought they were AMAZING..i felt sooo good to hear him say such a thing. but honestly the real reason why im so happy/exicted/nervous is because he has produced for latoya luckett and amerie(: anddd im like DANG thats amazing, and for him to say he wants to work on a song together made me feel great...i think that was like my inspiration to keep me going...sitting in the presence of someone who has met some of the biggest makes you think, this really is happening?..lol..its like you hear all those stories about when you meet michael jackson and he has some like weird presence that he brings, full of joy and happiness, i've heard alot of stories, and i finally got to see what they were saying to meet someone like him(:

if you have anyyy stories, tellll me I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW

scoota is my name, writing is my game(: lol...

okayyy SCOOTA, that is myyy name(: haha, wanna know the way i got it??? itsss pretty weird, when i was younger instead of crawling, i used to SCOOT around on the floor...lol...talk about rug burns? haha, but yeah...so my daddy used to call me scoota-boota, but i reallyyy had to take of the boota lol and the name has stuck with me since lol(:

someee people say my name is crazy, when i tell them my nickname just bust out laughing haha(: buttt i mean its me, i keep it real, callll me SCOOTA!

daddy's little girl

hmmm. my daddy has been doing music since as long as i can remember. i remember sitting with him in the garage and he would have his notepad out and i would sit and listen to him rap(: i lovedddd it. lol i used to know ALL his lyrics, and just nod my head with him..haha it was amazing(: buttt when i got older i stopped participating with him, i started to go into those "teenage years" when alll you are concerned about are boys...and fashion...and makeup lol(: daddy would say hey, im working on a new track, and i'd say "awe thatsss cool" and walk off. it wasnt until one year ago did i realize i want to do music(: lol...i would sit in my room and write, never thinking nothing of it. i thought my lyrics were HOR-RI-BLE! haha(: and soo i finally finished a song and i showed my dad...heee was SO SURPRISEDDD...he said i can really write(: soooo i turned around i have been writing and writing and writing(: haha...like father like daughter(: haha.